No, I haven't quit my job, but I've decided to start looking for a new one. I don't know what's going to happen as of this moment; next year I may simply end up in a different classroom at a different school, but I'm open to more than that. I'd be interested in alternative classrooms, alternative locations, but I'm also interested in exploring other fields that could use my skill sets. This is not an easy decision to make, but I'm thoroughly compelled that life is too short and this is no way to be living. It's one thing to feel challenged at a job, it's another to feel mentally and emotionally demolished every day. I can't stand myself. I'm a sad, depressed, and angry person. I daily want to lash out and strike children. Sounds funny, but it brings me to tears every day to know that it took everything in me to hold back from hurting a child. That's not me. It's not who I want to be. I can't serve anyone this way. In truth, I can hardly get out of bed. Please give me a hand. You all know me. Keep your eyes and ears peeled, and let me know if you hear of any opportunities you think would suit me. I'm ready to have a job where I can feel good about myself and be happy.
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